what a life this isn't

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Thu, 24 Nov 2011 17:06:50 -0500

I'm running to you because I can't talk to anyone else right now

Tue, 04 Oct 2011 00:06:37 -0400

I’m addicted and I can’t pull the plug. It’s happening. These thoughts are getting stronger and stronger and I feel numb. Once in a while suicide sneaks itself into my head. It’s the easy way out, it feels so peaceful. But I don’t want death, I just want a release from everything thats negative in my life.

I can’t pull the plug on it because it’s out of my control. I pray and plead but I know that just proves that I’m unfaithful and insecure. I try to blend in to fit in but it’s all back firing.

I try to play with fire and each time I keep adding fuel to the fire just to see how far I can go without burning down my mind, and I then I run to the river to fetch some water and put it out to stop these thoughts and help my life get back on track. But the river just keeps getting smaller and more shallow, so soon will it be empty and then it might be too late to save myself from burning out.

Addiction is misery. Addiction is anxiety. Addiction is not living your life true. I need help. But i’m too scared to reach out because I don’t want to be judged. I want to feel normal. I want to feel peace. I want to feel myself, and not what’s inside of me.

Depression, anxiety, suicide…. I don’t want it anymore. I just want to live normal. Please help me.

More than a month has passed since it happened

Wed, 31 Aug 2011 21:31:30 -0400

I hope you are happy.

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Wed, 31 Aug 2011 21:04:32 -0400

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Wed, 31 Aug 2011 21:01:19 -0400

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Wed, 31 Aug 2011 20:59:51 -0400

imkeepingyoubecause: Submitted by anon

Tue, 02 Aug 2011 10:28:53 -0400

imkeepingyoubecause:

Submitted by anon

Some Things Are Better Left Unsaid...: Goodbye.

Tue, 02 Aug 2011 10:26:52 -0400

Some Things Are Better Left Unsaid...: Goodbye.:

stablu:

His name trickled off of my tongue and onto the floor,
Resting besides the remains to my heart.
They always said it was the goodbye that hurts the most,
But it was our first hello that led us this way.
Don’t take me to the side and place a final kiss upon my lips.
Don’t tell me you still love me,…

alexismarie:

Tue, 02 Aug 2011 10:24:36 -0400

alexismarie:

I wish certain people didn't know about this blog/tumblr

Tue, 02 Aug 2011 10:21:51 -0400

because there are certain things I want to rant/tell you about, but I can’t.

And I’m not making a new one.

I guess I’ll just share it at some point…probably when I’m emotionally going downhill again~

can i reblog this to your face like only a million times just to...

Tue, 02 Aug 2011 10:20:08 -0400

can i reblog this to your face like only a million times just to prove this point? ITS NOT ENOUGH

beatrizhjjtz: ittakesabigfacade: stinamargarita: TEARS. i...

Tue, 02 Aug 2011 10:12:33 -0400

beatrizhjjtz:

ittakesabigfacade:

stinamargarita:

TEARS.

i physically cannot stop laughing omg

what the hell

giraffesareawesome: love-katrinaa: IT’S A BABY GIRAFFE. YOU...

Tue, 02 Aug 2011 10:11:36 -0400

giraffesareawesome:

love-katrinaa:

IT’S A BABY GIRAFFE. YOU HAVE TO REBLOG THIS.

dont mind if i do!

theballoonatic: leilockheart: Found on - LINK i fucking love...

Tue, 26 Jul 2011 03:04:30 -0400

theballoonatic:

leilockheart:

Found on - LINK

i fucking love this movie.

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Mon, 25 Jul 2011 11:28:35 -0400

theballoonatic: omg this is soo cute

Mon, 25 Jul 2011 11:27:26 -0400

theballoonatic:

omg this is soo cute

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Mon, 25 Jul 2011 11:26:29 -0400

why'd you take down all your sexy pics?

Mon, 25 Jul 2011 11:10:02 -0400

Didn’t like them anymore.

I'm sorry

Mon, 25 Jul 2011 00:53:07 -0400

for everything, I do know what I was thinking and it was wrong. Please forgive me. Please?

your blog is AMAZING. i just cummed loads. thank you

Thu, 21 Jul 2011 10:47:10 -0400

There’s nothing to cum to. So… ok?